Working girl

Last week I started a new job. It is something I have done previously. I am working in a school with many different kinds of children. 

 Some have special needs some have behavior issues and some have separation anxiety.

I love what I do. It is fulfilling I have great hours and I work with great people. I have always loved children and have always wanted to work with them.

With this new job comes a whole be set of responsibilities. I now have to be out of my house by a certain time. I have to pack another lunch( my own) I am guilty of being the mom from hell several days in the past week. Yelling "brush your teeth" "eat" "get dressed" "let's go" "hurry up!" I feel like a nazi. And also like a failure. Who likes to start of the day in a rush? Frustrated . Not me.

I have several other little jobs I do besides being a wife a mom and a school employee. I cater a few times a month and I also take care of a vacation rental several afternoons a week. I truly love the independence that the little money I earn gives. I love being able to say to My man " let me pay for dinner or to be able to purchase things for our kids or our home with cash I earned myself. But this comes at a price. It means I'm watering my garden in the dark. I'm doing laundry at 5:30 am. I'm not getting any exercise or much quiet time. I haven't found that balance that I need. 

How does one maintain balance in a life that is so busy. How do you choose  what to let go of? I love this home and life I have created here but there was always something missing. I needed a job. I needed to feel like I was doing more than just being a wife and a mama. And now I cant help but feel a bit overwhelmed! If I have any readers out there what are your thoughts? How do your keep a balance? I am open to any advice. 

Till next time!

The ( busy) imperfect mama

Stitch fix

I got my first stitch fix on Monday. All is all it was pretty good. I love getting mail with fun stuff in it.

Stitch fix is subscription company that sends a box of 5 items each month. You pay a 20$ styling fee up front. This month I received a necklace and 4 tops. I kept the necklace but not the tops. They were ok not really my style. We will try again next month. 

For those of you interested in learning more about this company please follow this link  

Happy Birthday

Today is my birthday. My 34th to be exact. 

I spent the day with my two youngest sons in San Francisco. It was so much fun to have a day away. 

I also did this: that's right I got my nose pierced. At 34 years old ha!

As we were pulling out of the driveway to head to dinner tonight my husband said ( with that grin only he can give) " so how old are you today?"

34 I said and smiled. 

"I know" he answered ," I just wanted to see of you could say it. 

I said that I am happy to say I am 34. My thirties have been great. I am happier now at 34 than I was at 24. I have much more confidence,I am more relaxed and I know what I want and who I want in my life. The thirties are good. I know that may sound silly to some bit I had a very hard time turning thirty ( grin ) I thought my life was ending . Little did I know it was just beginning. 

So Happy Birthday to this 34 year old imperfect wife an mama! may this next year be another full of growth , laughter , love and learning!

Enjoy your day!

Tammi

All is well

Hello
My son's surgery went well. It was a long day. I thought I was calm, cool, collected. I wasn't. I didn't realize it until that evening when I fell into to bed totally exhausted. It was a trying day. He is healing quickly I think. He is in great spirits today. I was a bit concerned after the surgery because when the meds wore off he seemed angry and depressed he was not the young man I know but today he was almost back to his own self. I am grateful. I am grateful for great Drs. And nurses and health insurance and so many things. Thank you Lord for helping our family through this.
I will be posting more interesting things soon. My garden is producing so many tomatoes I can't give them away and I have been tweaking my house like crazy to accommodate crutches and a walker. Pictures soon .
Have a good night friends
The Imperfect( and tired) Mama

Trying again

8-5-13

Hi non existent readers

My son is having surgery tommorow. Nothing bad but scary non the less. It's knee surgery to fix a torn acl and mcl. I'm being brave, strong and all of the things a mama is supposed to be but inside I'm a little freaked out. It's surgery. They put him under. There is always that chance that something could go wrong. I know and trust the Dr. And I haven't had too much time to get worked up since last week when they told us the news. 

My son is also being brave and strong( all of the things a young man is supposed to be so they say) but mama knows her kiddos and I know deep down he is terrified. 

So my non existent readers here is my special request if you are a praying person ( and it doesn't matter to me what god you pray to) will you do me a favor? Can you send one up for him tonight? Thanks

Until next time, 

Tammi 

The imperfect mama

    I sit on my front porch feeling grateful. I can hear my two youngest children in the backyard playing a noisy game of who knows what . The dog is barking at the chickens. I have a pot of tex mex chili on the stove and cornbread in the oven. I am lucky.
     I have been wrestling for a long time abou tthe life Ive chosen. The one where I work very little and stay home with my boys as much as possible. I have been feeling as though I need to be working full time so I can bring in more money, buy us better things, and take more vacations. As I sat on my porch today I realized something: I have all I have ever wished for and more. Im married to my high school sweetheart and I have 3 sons. I have a nice home with amazing neighbors. While many of my friends are rushing off to work during summer and winter break, we are just staring to stir in our house. Planning the day each day.
     Anyone who has known me for a long time knows that I am doing excatly what I am meant to.I am living the life I have always wanted. I am happy. I am learing about having excess and what all of that means . I am truly blessed.
How are you blessed. Are you living the life you have always dreamed of? If not it is time to start.

Decorating for the holidays

I love the holidays. The kiddos are out of school and our day are spent watching movies, baking , playing video games and relaxing. Did I mention breaking up fights and hearing I'm bored 1,000 times a day? Oh yeah there is that too.
I had some spare time yesterday and I decided to decorate for Christmas. This year I was bound and determined to use what I had or what was free and in corporate a lot of natural elements. I don't line plastic Santas or lots of little clutter. I prefer to make a statement in a few places. This year red is my color.
Here are a few photos of my home for the holidays. Please excuse the iPhone pics. I haven't gotten my tree yet. Maybe this weekend.
Until next time !
The Imperfect Mama